| It's been almost two years since I have blogged anything. I know that I have had stuff to write, but I just doesn't seem like I have the time to put it down. Maybe an New Year's resolution that I can keep?? Who knows. I have something that I really want to share with everyone, I don't know if "everyone" can still be reached by Xanga, but I figured that the few I know that have subscriptions must count for something, right? Anyway, as most of you know, I work at a bank. It can be a pretty stressful job, but the other day, I realized that I was part of something greater. Well, a girl came in to pay her car payment the other day. I would say that she was in her early 20's. When I looked up the amount due on her car, I discovered that she owed less than she thought she did. Apperantly she was paying some towards the principle every month and there's a certain way that the extra payment needs to be applied. If you don't apply it correctly, then it goes towards next month's payment. Her "extra payments" had cut her payment in half. I informed her of the current payment amount and explained what probably happened. She decided to pay 100.00 less that what she was going to originally pay. As I gave her the receipt, she looked at me and said, "This is such a God thing." She then told me how she really needed the extra money and that God always looks out for you. Two days later, she came in with a couple of shopping bags and walked right up to me. She then put the bags on the counter and said, "I didn't wrap these, but these are gifts for the Angel I picked up the other day." This young girl that is working, trying to make ends meet, and could have blown that extra money on herself, bought gifts for an Angel Tree Child. I almost cried right there. I told her not to worry about the wrapping, that I would take care of it. And as I sat in the middle of our livingroom floor that night wrapping her gifts, I realized how all of this came about. How God's hand was there, the whole time. It took her being smart and trying to add an extra principle payment to her loan every month, it took tellers that weren't paying attention to their jobs and applying the payments incorrectly for some months, it took her walking into our branch on a Friday night at just the right time that the other tellers were busy and the drive-thru teller was not, it took her not knowing the exact change of the payment for me to look up the payment for her to discover the error, and most of all-it took her listening to Him when he laid it on her heart to pick up an Angel. It's amazing how someone not doing what they are supposed to do can turn into Christmas for a needy child. Tell me that's not a Lifetime Christmas movie in the making! :) It also amazed me by how much I needed to be part of that. How I needed the reminder that He will take care of ALL of His children. Some of you may know this, but Stephen is no longer employed by the church. He hasn't been for a month now. The good thing about it is that we are okay until Februaury. The so-so news about it is that we may be moving pretty soon. And the terrible news about it is that we have no clue what is going to happen right now. If any of you REALLY know me, you know that I am a control freak. I make lists, several lists for everything. I budget and plan to the "T." In so many words, I am my mother-not that that's a bad thing all the time! :) I am trying to hard not to become upset and worried about the situation at hand and the unknowns that are out there. I know that God will take care of us and that this new stage in our life may be one that allows for us to start a family, or get out of debt, or possible move closer to relatives. I know that we will be okay no matter where we go. But, as the days count down, I wonder what it will take for us to leave here. We will need to sell our house. That's a really tought thing to do right now. So, it may be that I stay behind to sell the house. Okay, I'm alright with that, but can we afford two households? All these things creep up on me the moment I lay my head down at night. I'm just ready to know what we have to do to move on with our lives. Where are we going? What should we be doing? I keep trying to tell myself that all I need to know is the Lord is in charge, and He will put us where we need to be. And then a hymm pops into my head. I, the Lord of sea and sky, I have heard my people cry. All who dwell in dark and sin, My hand will save. Chorus Here I am, Lord. Is it I, Lord? I have heard you calling in the night. I will go, Lord, if you lead me. I will hold your people in my heart. I, who made the stars of night, I will make their darkness bright. Who will bear my light to them? Whom shall I send? Chorus Here I am, Lord. Is it I, Lord? I have heard you calling in the night. I will go, Lord, if you lead me. I will hold your people in my heart. I, the Lord of snow and rain, I have borne my people’s pain. I have wept for love of them. They turn away. Chorus Here I am, Lord. Is it I, Lord? I have heard you calling in the night. I will go, Lord, if you lead me. I will hold your people in my heart. I will break their hearts of stone, Give them hearts for love alone. I will speak my words to them. Whom shall I send? Chorus Here I am, Lord. Is it I, Lord? I have heard you calling in the night. I will go, Lord, if you lead me. I will hold your people in my heart. I, the Lord of wind and flame, I will send the poor and lame. I will set a feast for them. My hand will save. Chorus Here I am, Lord. Is it I, Lord? I have heard you calling in the night. I will go, Lord, if you lead me. I will hold your people in my heart. Finest bread I will provide, 'Til their hearts be satisfied. I will give my life to them. Whom shall I send? Chorus Here I am, Lord. Is it I, Lord? I have heard you calling in the night. I will go, Lord, if you lead me. I will hold your people in my heart. Genesis 46:2 "And God spoke unto Israel in the visions of the night, and said, Jacob, Jacob. And he said, Here am I." |